One year ago. After weeks of bedrest I had a feeling that today would be the day you were born. Mom had come in on Sunday and you were scheduled to come on Thursday. But I knew, somehow, that at my Tuesday appointment I would be told the great news that April 5, 2011, that day, I would see your face. I was right. I joked as I passed the doctor heading into my exam room, that I wanted to deliver that day. She told me no I had to wait. Then she saw my blood pressure, and agreed, that yes. I was going to meet you that afternoon! I left the doctors office with a two hour window to head home, grab your daddy, and head back up to the hospital. It all happened so fast. Nana Scoggins stayed home with the kids, and Granny Mary headed to the hospital to hang out with Matt and I while we waited for an ER to open up (we knew we would have a c-section).
The surgery to have you was absolutely amazing. It didn't feel like surgery. Yeah there was some poking and proding, but Mission had re-done their c-section delivery rooms and the changes were incredible. For Ella's c-section I remembered panicking a little when Matt left to go see Ella and I was being stitched up. I had warned the anesthesiologist to talk to me constantly because it might happen again. However, I didn't know about the new camera system in the delivery room. The moment you were taken across the room to be examined the technician pulled a flat screen right to my face. I watched you cry, get startled as you were weighed, and get comforted as you were swaddled. The anesthesiologist kept trying to talk to me and I shushed him - I was too busy watching my baby to panic!
Those first moments led to a downhill snowball of love. You have brought so much joy to our home in the past 365 days. Every special moment. Your first smile (you looked so much like Ella), the way you rolled over late, your hatred of baby food, your love of veggie puffs, crawling and the crazy world that follows a crawling baby. Watching your brother and sister fall in love with you. The way you laugh, the way you dance, the way you get excited and close your eyes because you can't contain yourself, the way you play, the way you snuggle. I love every inch, every moment, every thing about you Luke Steven Siak. I can't believe it's been a year since you stole my heart. I will love you forever. To the moon and back. Happy first birthday, Lukey.